One of the hardest lessons I’ve had to learn is that being needed and being called are not always the same thing. For a long time, I filled spaces because there was a need. People were being blessed. Lives were being impacted. Doors were opening. God was clearly using me. And honestly, that’s what made
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Ten years ago, I was getting married. I was traveling, leading worship nonstop, playing piano, serving at a high capacity in my church, and teaching music lessons at homes. I had built my own group of students, and I felt like I was on top of the world. I remember thinking, “Finally. The reason I
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There is a sentence in Luke 5 that unsettles me: “The old is better.” It is such an honest sentence. Jesus says it at the end of His illustration about new wine and old wineskins. He is not agreeing that the old is better. He is revealing how easily we confuse what is familiar with
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“When fear no longer edits the truth, freedom finally finds its voice.” For years, I had what someone once described as an “interesting relationship with truth.” Not because I loved deception. Not because I wanted to manipulate people. But because I was deeply afraid of rejection. I’ve shared before that childhood trauma distorted many of
(Remembering a Journal Entry from Sept 2021) “Let us not get tired of doing good, for we will reap at the proper time if we don’t give up.”—Galatians 6:9a CSB There are seasons that feel visible, productive, and clearly fruitful and then there are seasons that feel different. Quieter. Heavier. Less defined. Full of responsibility,
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There was a moment when I realized my résumé still made sense on paper, but not in real life. On paper, the experience, the training, and the years were there; the qualifications made sense. I could look back and see the rooms I had served in, the responsibilities I had carried, the skills I had
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A few years ago, I was flipping through an old journal and found a sentence I had written in the middle of a restless season: “Talent alone is not enough. Service is His love language. Talent is just a tool.” I remember exactly where I was emotionally when I wrote it. Things had shifted. Roles
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Sometimes serving starts to hurt when our availability has an agenda. That is not an easy sentence to write. A while ago, I received a message from a volunteer who was hurting. She felt confused because she was not being placed in certain leadership opportunities. She shared that she had been very available, but was
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I’ve sung Brandon Lake’s Gratitude more times than I can count. In church, in the car, in full seasons, and in fragile ones. And every time that line comes around, “All that I have is a Hallelujah”, something in me pauses. Because sometimes that really is all we have. Not the answer. Not the clarity.
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If you thought I was just starting a blog… turns out, I am just opening journal entries God has been leading me to write for more than eight years. These words did not begin when I pressed publish. They began in quiet places. In prayers I did not always know how to word. In questions
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